Where am I now?
For this post, it is a self reflection piece but also a time for me to appreciate myself and who I am because I am important too.
In the beginning of my sophomore year, I would not have thought of staying on campus for the summer. I felt that I took my family for granted my whole freshman year and that I wanted to make it up this summer. Unfortunately, I am here on campus for the whole summer, and I haven’t even been home yet.
Luckily, I have the best family in the world. They support me through everything and understand that an opportunity like this is hard to come by. It is not like I do not even communicate with them either. I skype with them almost every day, and I just love seeing their faces. Most of all, I love how my dog Phoebe turns her head in a funny way when she hears my voice. God, and my family and friends are precious to me, and I would sacrifice myself for them any day. I love you all!
It has almost been a week since I’ve been by myself on campus. I am getting used to work and the environment I surround myself with. Yes, it is hard to get over being all alone, but it is a part of my growth and how I can overcome my anxiety. It is a consequence of being single as well, but I am too stubborn to commit to a relationship. Plus, I am not the type to be held down. I love being independent too much for now. Keeping myself busy may be enough, but I have to balance my work and exploring the outskirts of campus. Or inskirts as well. (Inskirts isn’t even a word…)
In all honesty, this will be an amazing summer. This break gives me a chance to self-reflect on my identity, my life, my strengths, and my education. As much as I want to be home cuddling my dog, I would rather be here exploring what is not known and taking each day on my own for once. I believe staying on campus for the summer is not equivalent to fall and spring semester just because you are surrounded by so many people. It is a ghost town here. I knew that finding a job would be harder back home rather than on campus. & on Facebook, some people just want to come back or they are still looking for a job. I definitely appreciate the job I have. Even though it is not the greatest job, I take a new day step by step with positivity.
The sun came out. It is beautiful outside.
